That bloody light in the tunnel must be somewhere there...

Ahhhh...both girls were up at 7.30am till 6.30pm, no naps whatsoever ...where do they get energy from I have no idea!...Oh yeah maybe from me as I feel totally drained....like old, tatty bike battery...oh well, MAYBE TONIGHT THEY WILL SLEEP THE WHOLE NIGHT???!!! The famous everyday wish...

So you thought you would die and the world forgets you...

By the sounds of things it seemed like it was going to be a massive operation...General anaesthetic and loads of pre- assessments and tons of letters...Quite ironic really as when you really need help when feeling crap all you get is Paracetamol...

Well I trusted my guts yet again as I felt its all a bit OTT and said I am a hardcore supermummy after two labours with no pain relief...so just stick that needle in , Mayn and I am going to be just fine...well apart from my freezing feet I was fine....
....So that was it, few minutes and an egg sandwich and a cup of tea later both tasting delicious after almost 12 hours of fasting I was free to go back home...Shame as I was quite happy to stay in hospital bed for quite some time...reading my mag, watching the ill world go by....few things did make me chuckle though:

1. Hello , my name is blah blah Do you mind if I just have a look...nope....Hello I am blah and blah...Can I just have a look? yeah, no probs!...go ahead! anybody else? trainees? cleaners? lol!

2. Now we will take you to the theatre...hmmm couldn't help but thinking : "whats showing today?" but apart from my naked bits not much apparently lol!

3. We are very sorry,looks like you will have to wait a whiley for somebody to take you back to recovery room...OMG taaaake your time, I am not in rush....this is like day off for me...not often i get to do nothing at AM hour...

Are we there yet and mummy please be careful...

...Spring has sprung....for ten minutes...a little cheeky teaser spreading its very weak rays of sunshine playing lazily and carelessly with tiny new buds of flowers and trees...
I am its victim...I am a masochist.....craving a little bit of heat, seeking every little sign of new life....trace of happiess...so got the girls dressed and we went outside to play in the garden....everything so new for Pixie as she missed it last year being just born...Woo Woo felt like a little boss telling her younger sister what`s ok to touch, what`s too cold, what`s too sharp, what`s too small....I soon accustomed my ears to the new outdoor "No" code.....then we had fun! ....seven black bags full of winter rubbish later and a pile of sticks and wooden rubbish we decided to have our first bonfire and some thin foil wrapped roasted potatoes...hmmmm yummy!